im having serious mood problems at the moment.
i was thinking about the four chance rule again.
i was angry
i was pissed
i was worried.
i know about how i dont know how to do the worksheets and how i havent done them
and how they have to be handed up
if it happens, two of my chances will be used up pretty soon
i dont want that to happen
right now, i dont want anything to happen. and just when im enjoying a solitary moment, here came my mom ask me to go down to buy milk& bread.
i ignored her.
later she came in and started to nag and nag. then naturally i was not in the best of spirits to have much patience. so i just threw a temper
i threw a temper.
i threw a fit .
i got mad. and i stormed out. grabbing the keys, and everything
then my mom tagged along
she kept bugging me why i threw a temper.
i was still pondering about the blasted four chances shiat.
i almost cried can.
she wouldnt give me a cooling off period.
pestered me like a bug to a light
i needed time. to cool off. she wouldnt give it.
today was a bad day.
in the last hour, i have struggled to refrain from swearing out loud.
i hate this
i hate this difficulty
i hate my life
oh boy, i cant wait to grow up and marry, and live someplace real far. far away.
i feel like shit.
dont ask me why i start swearing again.
i mean it .
i feel like shit. the way im treated
see, im trying to justify myself.
but the fact is, im having mood swings.
kind of unstable right now.
