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Monday, May 28, 2007

ohh, life!
once again...
THE TIGER PRINCESS IS UNHAPPY.
okkay, it may seem lame lah, referring to myself as the tiger princess. muahas.
in anycase, today someone saw me with me horrific eyes and kept laughing. i told her to quit it, but she said it was nice. then she followed by demanding that i show her all seven faces of my cocked-up facial expression.

i got dulaned and i told her to stop. then she said she wanted to vip her eyes to mine. and she said she would buy me a eye VIP. then i was quite happy when she said that, cuz she was like a rich 10-YEAR-OLD girl. absurd that im qiaozhaing someone younger than myself.
the point is. she went to do pq, she said she'd buy for me later. so off i went to train lah, ten later right, i went to find her, and she said she had spent all her cash. man, i dont even know if i should trust her. the worst thing is that i told issac not to buy me the eye vip.

the bad thing now is my dilemma. should i ask issac to still buy for me, it would seem like im trying to rob him broke, like a toy, i say i want then dont want then want. its like so bad. and makes me look greedy. maybe i am greeedy, but i would have rather made someone i dont know spend money rather than someone i know right?

but so now if this stranger dont buy for me, im left with nothing but my pride.
or i shal have to swallow my pride and ask issac for the cash.
damnit. or even worse, i have to buy myself.
see, those selfish and greedy words. i suck. i need to stop taking advantage of other people just because i dont want to lose out. this is damnation.

i dont want to make myself an unredeemable greedy asshole with no sense of pride!
but i love my money
this is shit.
im so materialistic, its damned. i should just die already.

being materialistic is one thing, but taking advantage of people because im materialistic is anotehr.
help me, i should kill myself already.


okay someone bugging me to play piano.
you know what? the exams in july probably, and i cant play for nuts, my first& second song.
( tahs, im pretty confident for the third one ) ((:
anyway, im dead. so bye (:

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