another thing im afraid of besides hosting, is choir.
especially when im sick lah.
which i am today.
cough cough sore throat flu flu. i couldnt sing for nuts today. we had like warm ups for practically half an hour. the poor conductor ( student) .. probably was his first time? broke down i think afterward, lets not dwell on that. like the seniors said, we were
flat . damn flat. i suppose especially when the sec 1 newcomers are around. especially the sick ones. yeah yeah you know who.
then we had to stand with the seniors and that was soo bad. because mainly i dont fancy coughing on other people's territory, and worse, not be able to help it. half the whole way through gamelan , i hadnt been singing. i thought i was. but i just wasnt.
because?
my voice disappeared, unknowingly.
okay la, so it was there, but it was like.. stuck? somewhere in the stupid diaphragm.
oh my, breathing exercises were soo..
cant get it right. i was lost. the president ( yee ching or sth ) was putting her fist at our diaphragms and pushing. we had to breathe this way that like.. pumping the diaphragm liddat, and be able to withstand her pushing. gosh, i almost fell off my feet sia.
terrifying, when you are a noob and dont know how to breathe properly. and is sick.
we were scared there was the test. im not sure i want to go anywhere at all. alto? i cant stand the sop, can die there. they were practically screaming.
you can go deaf in choir. even screaming at yourself isnt that loud. now tell me, how to hiss without jerking your shoulder, ):
im sitting in self pity at my miserable, breathless self. and in doing the hissing, how to apply to when you sing? you dont hiss when you sing right.
oh God, please please make me well la. wednesday got Speech day rehearsal . need to get well by then.!
BYE (:
pray for me k (:Labels: short posts
