i am such a DUNCE! DUNCEY STUPID POOPHEAD DUNCCCEEE. i spent the whole day editing my skin, oon frenster, slacking off because there was no homework today thats due tmr. but hell no, i just took a quick glance at the timetable. WTC! i havent done my HE coursework which is like, due tmr leh-.- HMPTH
and well i felt so understood. and felt that it was so 'me' or rather i felt that it was what i had been feeling for a SUPER DUPER loong time. i read a post from a blog which i found by... my friend link, which linked me to this blog, where i found this other link. yeah that blog. lol.
BUT. yes! i thought i was an alien person who is the only one who feels this kind of misery. but its true this way i feel is so SAD. the want-to-punch-you-in-the-face sad. hm...... i emailed hyo lim again. its been a million years since i talked to her. she says she enjoying life at last in NYG. like wtc can u erm.. believe that. =.=
like wtc, i feel so biantai whn i kip looking at that damned picture? i'm being taken as a psycho ass who smiles & laughs to herself geddit.
miserable lar, my life. uhh shit lor. i kip having this super strong feeling like im being watched by someone in school? is that bad? urgh. ><>
i just realised exams are round the corner O_O like wth lar. schoool JUST started can. and now its like week 3. =.= crap! i still remember the stupid threat that my mom makes. the one about not letting me help in yf camp or even GO yf during exams. like the exams are an extended periiod.. if there are exams spaced out over a course of 3 weeks meaning i cant go for 3 weeks? i might as well jump off a building.
STOP. JUST STOP. STOP making these unfair rules for me. STOP trying to decide things for me STOP thinking that i am still a small girl needing to be pampered STOP trying to stop me from being independent STOP ruining my happiness STOP petting and fussing over me STOP checking on me STOP accusing me STOP interrogating me STOP complaining about me STOP being a nag STOP acting like a saint, that everything you do is right and ' for my own good' STOP IT MOM. STOP IT.
FEDDED UP
im feeling so bitchy i think im going to be the same tonight when my mother does etc.etc. stuff again that will make me keep all my eruptions under a bottle cap which is under a lot of pressure and is about to crack open.
yes and such shit it is. just because if grandma goes with you to the chinese service on firday doesnt mean i have to. IT DOESNT. and i am most certainly not going to get my ass off the bed anytime before 8.30. if no one will send me there, i shall go myself. i shall indeeed. and don give me that crap about being tired when we get home and blah blah blah.. because the COLD HARD TRUTH IS. that YOU are the only tired one that's getting tired. not everyone is as weak-stamina-ed as you. and so, i shall not go for the chinese service full stop! of course this is just an adamant decision. it doesnt confirm anything. which is just about the worse thing about blogger. because we can spew whatever we wish, what is best, what we want changed. but NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN BECAUSE THIS FUNCTION ON THE INTERNET IS JUST ABOUT CAPABLE TO LET US POST ONLY FULLSTOP. right?
AURRGGHHHH..
isnt it just plain injustice. i want to run away. run away from all this rules.
i am such a DUNCE! DUNCEY STUPID POOPHEAD DUNCCCEEE. i spent the whole day editing my skin, oon frenster, slacking off because there was no homework today thats due tmr. but hell no, i just took a quick glance at the timetable. WTC! i havent done my HE coursework which is like, due tmr leh-.- HMPTH
and well i felt so understood. and felt that it was so 'me' or rather i felt that it was what i had been feeling for a SUPER DUPER loong time. i read a post from a blog which i found by... my friend link, which linked me to this blog, where i found this other link. yeah that blog. lol.
BUT. yes! i thought i was an alien person who is the only one who feels this kind of misery. but its true this way i feel is so SAD. the want-to-punch-you-in-the-face sad. hm...... i emailed hyo lim again. its been a million years since i talked to her. she says she enjoying life at last in NYG. like wtc can u erm.. believe that. =.=
like wtc, i feel so biantai whn i kip looking at that damned picture? i'm being taken as a psycho ass who smiles & laughs to herself geddit.
miserable lar, my life. uhh shit lor. i kip having this super strong feeling like im being watched by someone in school? is that bad? urgh. ><>
i just realised exams are round the corner O_O like wth lar. schoool JUST started can. and now its like week 3. =.= crap! i still remember the stupid threat that my mom makes. the one about not letting me help in yf camp or even GO yf during exams. like the exams are an extended periiod.. if there are exams spaced out over a course of 3 weeks meaning i cant go for 3 weeks? i might as well jump off a building.
STOP. JUST STOP. STOP making these unfair rules for me. STOP trying to decide things for me STOP thinking that i am still a small girl needing to be pampered STOP trying to stop me from being independent STOP ruining my happiness STOP petting and fussing over me STOP checking on me STOP accusing me STOP interrogating me STOP complaining about me STOP being a nag STOP acting like a saint, that everything you do is right and ' for my own good' STOP IT MOM. STOP IT.
FEDDED UP
im feeling so bitchy i think im going to be the same tonight when my mother does etc.etc. stuff again that will make me keep all my eruptions under a bottle cap which is under a lot of pressure and is about to crack open.
yes and such shit it is. just because if grandma goes with you to the chinese service on firday doesnt mean i have to. IT DOESNT. and i am most certainly not going to get my ass off the bed anytime before 8.30. if no one will send me there, i shall go myself. i shall indeeed. and don give me that crap about being tired when we get home and blah blah blah.. because the COLD HARD TRUTH IS. that YOU are the only tired one that's getting tired. not everyone is as weak-stamina-ed as you. and so, i shall not go for the chinese service full stop! of course this is just an adamant decision. it doesnt confirm anything. which is just about the worse thing about blogger. because we can spew whatever we wish, what is best, what we want changed. but NOTHING WILL EVER HAPPEN BECAUSE THIS FUNCTION ON THE INTERNET IS JUST ABOUT CAPABLE TO LET US POST ONLY FULLSTOP. right?
AURRGGHHHH..
isnt it just plain injustice. i want to run away. run away from all this rules.
i may be known as curry, fangy , limmy , cap , bananawoman , limfanghui but otherwise just carey, and i im 13 . studying in anderson sec and a proud index number 4 . part of class 1/1 and anderson choir . i have over-confident tendencies but i hate people to have high expectations of me . it may sound complicated but im just a simple girl with a simple brain and a simple life . far cry from a prodigy, but i can get by passing .
i prefer big animals over small ones . hating sharp things like needles , razors and grasscutters . christian , singaporean , female , straight , chinese and i like small children . i dislike people without commitment and people who backstab others . people might say im rude , uncouth , inconsiderate, lian (!?) , sensitive and proud . & if you think so , you jolly well look in the mirror , get off your high horse and stop judging me because i like it that way .
you cant ever miss your childhood hanging around with me .
