Fairytale fly

dammit all.
the world is stepping on my toes.
and even i dont know how to react to that.
human senses would be to react with violence, and verbal abuse.
ps. wen i think about 'violence is a sign of pregnancy' i giggle.
but as a christian, im supposed to forgive and everything.
i dont mind so much being bullied when there is someone around to stand up for me, to tell them to stop. to tell them to stop already.

pissed? i really dont know if my new group is good or not good. personally, the boys ' bully' me? and of all people, kevin must learn from ivan to whack my bottle. ehem, repeatedly. once or twice i can stand the nonsense but i have this erratic feeling that this wont stop. and maybe my group isnt a total blessing to me on certain parts.

i feel strage when people for example huixiang, when they say i am so lucky to be in the group im in. sure, she's in a worse off sstate so i can understand how she feels about my group which is basically average.

Kevin.. likes to whack my bottle, and call me names, andlaugh at me but he's a helpful chap.
Fadz.. he's a supposedly good chairman... but calls me names too and tries (...) to whack my bottle. i mean its not a BIG issue or anything. i have repeated umpteen times about how sensitive i am? and its not a matter of whether im closer to you and i get hurt easier or what, because its really anooying the things you boys do.

to top that off, there's no good friend sitting really near by. ivan and hady were a better group if you asked me. well then, who doesnt like the group they spent two whole months with? i certainly love my group, and have fostered friendships like with hady ivan and harshaana. (larry? he changed seats soon)

even when ivan whacked my bottle, kevin would laugh... but ivan was a nicer chap because he would cheer me up when i looked sadd. which is a nice boy thing also apart from ' if it makes you happy' courtesy of jenwei and zijie kor :D

yes niceboys are nice. as in goodguys. not those evil evil bad bad people who call people names. ivan is still okay for that matter.

but no, yuhao doesnt stand up for me, or tell the boys to stop or anything, and my life is dull and bitter. shaoxuan throws things at me for a reason im unaware of.

beep.. i got a call from some angmoh. " may i speak to Phillip Kent please?"
"sorry i think you got the wrong number"
"oh......well thank you"
"thanks"
"beep beep beep"

nope no phillip kent i know!

anyway i dont know im always around boys who like to tease, call names, disturb and hurt(emo) me like kevin fadz sx poseng.. and its so giddying.. i dont want to sit there anymore. im not pointing blame at anyone andd dont feel bad oranything (..) but just to throw out my thoughts and pressures on this blog entry.

i wanted to try the 'talk more' method of changing seats but... who can i talk to?
no one.

the only people there for me. siying peiyan dq seri hx.
thats for in school ar.

i know there are lots more :D
like my church buds.
CAROL
SAM
JX
DEBB
luff u all

and

I LOVE YOU AUDREY

thanks for being there, for being THERE>

for me :D

im not in a desperate situation. i love weekends.

i love yf i love yf so so much i love yf yesss. YF ROCKS. LOV YF COM AND YF PEEPS :D y'all make my saturdays for the rest of the week

oh how i look forward to yf :D

especially today since im so down. it will lift my moods :D yes yes it will XD and i will forget about everything

hahahhaha. ;D

anyway i must do homework already so tata :S

CAREY!!

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