you know. i might not be the best at scolding vulgarities. i really want to stop. but in situations like this, what good is controlling myself. you know, i wished there was a word that wasnt vulgar, but is a good way to scold people. apparently some people like to respond when nobody is talking to him at all. and i hate this kind of people . i can understand standing up for a friend. but the question is, is it right to stand up for your friend when he is in the wrong? that's like, plain injustice for that. And no, im not liking it one bit, get it.
haiz. im dizzying in this world. its caving in, the world. where are all the nice, kind helpful heroic people mentioned in fairy tales and fables ridiculously many times? In school. why are so many people against me all the time? Am i so, sickening? i don't think so, and injustices - i wait for five whole torturous days for the well appreciated weekends, only to be piled with homework.
do you know how yf is important to me.. its really nice to b happy for at least a day in the whole week. when everyday else is a horribly angry or sorrowful day. my friends at school are great, but some people like YOU. really need to reflect yoursself in a mirror. i don't badmouth people for no reason. and i expect no one else does either, therefore i know there's a need to check on myself everytime someone makes a comment about me.
i HATE THIS WORLD. the last thing i would do is to KILL ALL OF YOU. all of you seriously sickening people. SCREW YOU ALL to hell
and as for nick, i really think there's no need to check on myself if you call me a coke whore. because i dont give two hoots and i might not be cheam enough to rebut you with fiercer words, but what does that count for? does that mean im incompetent? most certainly not.
You know it. i'm not scolding anyone for no shit reason or just because im in a bad mood and take it out on something. in case you all think i'm saying this because im a throughly mean and evil girll taking revenge orsomething, im not please.
i am sad, not angry. its something i've been doing my best to cover up, and being with my friends today made me happy. the moment i left church, this came back to mind. i stopped thinking of everything else.
curse you!
kayhwee : please, stop bringing utmost misery to me? are you enjoying this? laugh go ahead! for heaven's sake please tell your most good friends that you don't like me anymore. and please, i thought you said you would stop them from talking about it anymore. and i hate you for this. because its a sensitive point and all theeir talk is most unwelcomed and hurtful. whether i am not a good person or not. whether you hate me, or not. or maybe you just want to spite me. well done, you did it!
its the most unluckiest thing in my entire life to sit a few metres away from you.
why am i not a good person? from what i assess from myself, im neither a backstabber, betrayer, arsonist, murderer or anything. why must i go through all this?
when can i return to a cheerful hyper girl during the weekdays? can i only smile in church? miserable and desperate.
i should have got to CHIJ after all. maybe girl classes aren't as bad. and i would know lots of people there. then again it means i have to face many people.
and i am so so so sad, and tormented so so so sad.
i might as well take a gun and put it to my head, get it over with. i dont wanna do this
at times likethese, i like to sing songs. Empower me is a good one.
<3> today YF WAS GREAT I LOVE IT tho it rained. had fun :D LOVE YF I LOVE YOU YF
you know. i might not be the best at scolding vulgarities. i really want to stop. but in situations like this, what good is controlling myself. you know, i wished there was a word that wasnt vulgar, but is a good way to scold people. apparently some people like to respond when nobody is talking to him at all. and i hate this kind of people . i can understand standing up for a friend. but the question is, is it right to stand up for your friend when he is in the wrong? that's like, plain injustice for that. And no, im not liking it one bit, get it.
haiz. im dizzying in this world. its caving in, the world. where are all the nice, kind helpful heroic people mentioned in fairy tales and fables ridiculously many times? In school. why are so many people against me all the time? Am i so, sickening? i don't think so, and injustices - i wait for five whole torturous days for the well appreciated weekends, only to be piled with homework.
do you know how yf is important to me.. its really nice to b happy for at least a day in the whole week. when everyday else is a horribly angry or sorrowful day. my friends at school are great, but some people like YOU. really need to reflect yoursself in a mirror. i don't badmouth people for no reason. and i expect no one else does either, therefore i know there's a need to check on myself everytime someone makes a comment about me.
i HATE THIS WORLD. the last thing i would do is to KILL ALL OF YOU. all of you seriously sickening people. SCREW YOU ALL to hell
and as for nick, i really think there's no need to check on myself if you call me a coke whore. because i dont give two hoots and i might not be cheam enough to rebut you with fiercer words, but what does that count for? does that mean im incompetent? most certainly not.
You know it. i'm not scolding anyone for no shit reason or just because im in a bad mood and take it out on something. in case you all think i'm saying this because im a throughly mean and evil girll taking revenge orsomething, im not please.
i am sad, not angry. its something i've been doing my best to cover up, and being with my friends today made me happy. the moment i left church, this came back to mind. i stopped thinking of everything else.
curse you!
kayhwee : please, stop bringing utmost misery to me? are you enjoying this? laugh go ahead! for heaven's sake please tell your most good friends that you don't like me anymore. and please, i thought you said you would stop them from talking about it anymore. and i hate you for this. because its a sensitive point and all theeir talk is most unwelcomed and hurtful. whether i am not a good person or not. whether you hate me, or not. or maybe you just want to spite me. well done, you did it!
its the most unluckiest thing in my entire life to sit a few metres away from you.
why am i not a good person? from what i assess from myself, im neither a backstabber, betrayer, arsonist, murderer or anything. why must i go through all this?
when can i return to a cheerful hyper girl during the weekdays? can i only smile in church? miserable and desperate.
i should have got to CHIJ after all. maybe girl classes aren't as bad. and i would know lots of people there. then again it means i have to face many people.
and i am so so so sad, and tormented so so so sad.
i might as well take a gun and put it to my head, get it over with. i dont wanna do this
at times likethese, i like to sing songs. Empower me is a good one.
<3> today YF WAS GREAT I LOVE IT tho it rained. had fun :D LOVE YF I LOVE YOU YF
i may be known as curry, fangy , limmy , cap , bananawoman , limfanghui but otherwise just carey, and i im 13 . studying in anderson sec and a proud index number 4 . part of class 1/1 and anderson choir . i have over-confident tendencies but i hate people to have high expectations of me . it may sound complicated but im just a simple girl with a simple brain and a simple life . far cry from a prodigy, but i can get by passing .
i prefer big animals over small ones . hating sharp things like needles , razors and grasscutters . christian , singaporean , female , straight , chinese and i like small children . i dislike people without commitment and people who backstab others . people might say im rude , uncouth , inconsiderate, lian (!?) , sensitive and proud . & if you think so , you jolly well look in the mirror , get off your high horse and stop judging me because i like it that way .
you cant ever miss your childhood hanging around with me .
